Jack Ian Peter Impey

I have a beautiful sleeping angel that lives in my head my heart and my dreams.

Thank you Jamie for making such a beautiful baby boy with me he was so perfect.

At 34 weeks in my pregnancy on the 4th September 2000 @ 3.21pm Jack Ian Peter Impey was Born asleep
Weighting 4lb 13oz.

On Monday 6th April 1998 @ 2.20am at the age of 18 i became a mum to a beautiful baby boy Stuart
weighting 5lb 9oz. I love being a mum to him so much.
In January 2000 I moved out of my mum and dads house and into a flat of my own with Stuart and my
new partner Jamie. We had talked about having a baby of our own and it happened sooner than we
thought. In Febuary 2000 i found out i was going to have a baby we were over joyed by the news. It
was a pretty normal pregnancy to start off with just a little morning sickness.
At our 20 week scan we were told that our baby was doing great. The only problem was that i had a
low lying placenta, but it should move up as the pregnancy went on. While we were there we asked
what we were having. I remember not being sure if i had heard him right at first, but i had we were
going to have a little baby boy.
During my pergnancy after 20 weeks i had passed out twice, both times i had Stuart with me and i was
on my own with him. The 1st time was when i got off a bus while i was dropping Stuart off to Jamies
mums before work. The 2nd time was at home i past out on the balcony, while Stuart was running round
the house. The 2nd time it happened i got taken to the hospital, which turned out to be caused by a
water infection.
I had a scan at 30 weeks and was told that my placenta had moved up and the baby was still looking
great.
On the 3rd of september i spent the day looking after Stuart and a friends 2 boys, while jamie was
at work. They both came back from work then after my friend left we went round to see jamies dad.
While i was there i started to get pains in my tummy which got worse on the way home. I didnt think
anything of it at first as i thought they were brackston hicks, but they just got worse even after i
had a bath to help with them.
At 11.45 pm Jamies mum and step-dad came round and took us to the hospital then went back home with
Stuart asking us to call when he was born.
I was put on a monitor and he seemed fine and had gone into early labour. At 1.40am on the 4th
September I had a scan to cheak the baby, as he was breech at my last appointment. everything was
going well i was just waiting for them to give me an injection of steroids as he was not due till
the 9th October.
It was at 2.00am my life turned into a nightmare. the heart beat had gone from the monitor, but
first thought that the baby had just moved like they do. The hospital staff spent 10 minutes trying
to find the heart beat, which was when they did the 2nd scan. By this time there were 4 people in
the room looking at the scan, which 3 of them left soon after doing. They were only gone a few
minutes but it felt like a life time and the midwife with us never said much at all. when they came
back in i heard the words that echoed over and over. Your babys heart has stopped beating.
Jamie and i just hugged each other crying not beliving what was happening to us and the pain knowing
we were going to have to tell our parents to. I remember calling my mum and as soon as i heard her
voice i just started crying all over again i just managed to get it out.
Jamies mum and step-dad came to the hospital first followed by my mum and step-dad after. before
long everyone had heard what had happened and my Dad, step-mum, Grandad, sister, brother and Jamies
dad were at the hospital all devastated by the news.
Everyone waited out side the hospital while i was having Jack, Jamie and my mum were with me and
Jamies mum was in the room near by if Jamie needed her with him if it got to much.
At 3.21pm on the 4th september 2000 Jack was born weighting 4lb 13oz he was so small and so
beautiful.
All the family came in to see him and hold him. The next day we had a blessing for him then it was
decided it was time to say goodbye. Everyone went in to say there last goodbyes before jamie and i
had time with him alone. I was the last person to say goodbye to him i just hugged him and kissed
him the whole time i was with him. I never knew why i did it, but i did sing the song "if your happy
and you know it" to him i think it was my way of giving me something that made me feel like a mum
with a baby before letting myself remember the painful truth.
The staff at the hospital were great the whole time i was there with them. They treated my baby like
it was any healthy baby and never made me feel wrong for treating my baby as though he was alive. I
am also thankful for the love help and surport that my family and jamies family gave use at the time
when we needed them. i love my family more than ever for the help they gave me and will always love
and be thankful for jamies family for all the love help and surport they gave us after jack was born
and the help they gave me before that, It is love help and surport that can never be forgotten and
never will. ( thank you Kay, Nigel, Lorner, Scott, Kirsty and Mark xxxxx)
Jamie and i found the loss of our baby hard so much. I knew that if we stayed together we would just
end up hearting each other more than we already were. On the 7th of January 2001 Jamie and i broke
up. I was now not only dealing with the loss of my baby, but of the loss of Jamie to. Ending my
relationship with jamie was the hardest thing i had to do after saying good bye to my son, but i
knew it was for the best. That day i not only let go of the man i loved but my best friend to. I
miss Jack everyday and would give anything to have him back.
Once opon a time life was so clear and so happy, but now life is not so clear for me as it once was.
No matter what i do i will aways live with the pain and heart ache that i went through lossing
everything i could have ever asked for, Knowing that nothing i do can ever bring him back.

As for happyness i have scince been blessed with 3 beautiful little girls. They will never replace
Jack or make me feel better about losing him, but between them and my son they make each day easier
to bare. In the darkest places of my life my children are my sunshine and my ray of light.

There are 4 songs on his site the first is the song played at his funeral. The other songs are ones
that remind me of Jack when i hear them.

The remebarence book for Jack says;The rain that fills the cloudes is like the love that fills our
hearts and we love and miss you everyday that we spend apart. to a little prince from a family that
loves you.